Poppy

Wow, first blog post in months…

Over the last few months a great deal of things has made their presence in my life. From elections to college, it has been a busy time for me. The most important thing that happened to me was the passing of my Grandfather from this world into the arms of our Lord in heaven.

It is strange to know that my Grandfather is no longer here with me. As most people do not know, my Grandfather took my fathers place. My father made a choice not to establish his role as my father. As such, my Grandfather did so with out being asked.

I look back at the years that I have known my father and my Grandfather. My father taught me very little. He never had the chance too. He decided after the divorce to stay in Dallas as my mother moved to Austin. He also decided to replace his family time with work. I cannot fault my father for the choices he has made. Well, I know I could if I wanted but he showed me a very valuable lesson, how to be a poor father. Oddly enough this is a good thing. I have contrast and I can explain why I do things as I learned from experience.

Now don’t misunderstand how I feel about my father. I love him very much and wish to spend more time with him. He has four grandchildren he (Split equally between my brother and I) has never seen. I am sure he has funny stories to share with me as he usually does. I really enjoy sitting on the couch with him and watching movies.

If I look at whom, if I had a choice, I would want to raise me with their teachings it would have to be my Grandfather. I learned a great many things from him. As I reflect at the years under his care I learn even more. The more I analyze I understand that what he did, said, and acted (if intentional or not) had been done to educate me. I know now it was to prepare me for a long life of happiness, prosperity, and somewhat good health.

Now that he has passed, I am trying to collect everything I learned. I want to make sure that my son can learn faster than I did. I hope to teach him better than I learned. I hope that I can make my son a better man than I….

….. I know I can…my Grandfather showed me how.